Monotony = Growth

I have come to realize that monotony in life equals to growth in my relationship with the Lord. Unfortunetly, though, I hate monotony. I hate living the same life for more than a year. I like certain changes to happen, including relationships, jobs, vehicles, vacations, trips, things like that. But maybe that's why God has allowed it to enter into my life: so I will trust Him to change my life when He's ready, not me. My faith and trust in God is stretched sooo much during these times of 'nothing new.' Painful? Very much so...but I know in the long run, it will be very much worth it. In the meantime, I guess I'll make the most of what life is right now. I'm still kinda lonely. Keeping kids all day almost every day has it advantages, but nothing in life comes with all pros and no cons. Adult, well young adult, conversations rarely ever take place. I don't meet a whole lot of new people, unless I'm teaching their child for the very first time, but that doesn't count. It's normally just me and....well, me. I guess that's the most monotonous part of my life right now. I'm just ready for my life to change in a good way. I'm ready for something different. I'm ready to stay up late talking on the phone, having places to go on the weekends, and just to have fun. I'm almost 21 and already burned out of work with no life. My 14 year old sister has much more of a life than I do. My 11 and 8 year old sisters have more of a life than me, for that matter. Sad, I know, but true. Maybe that's another reason I've come to hate monotony. For whatever reason it is, God has a perfect purpose for it and will, if He chooses to, reveal it to me at His own perfect timing. I just hope it's sooner than later.